My mom was at work last night so I had the apartment all by myself. I talked with my friends over Skype for hours. We do that a lot right now, I guess it’s one of these periods in life I’m gonna miss very badly when they’re gone. We talk about everything, but my faith always comes up, no matter what. The thing is that I’m never the one bringing it up. But I’m telling you, talking about God with people who are against him… That is not the easiest thing.
At one moment during the Skype-call I got really frustrated and I almost ran out of my room. I said to God “Why do I always become good friends with people who are against you? It’s always like that, and it doesn’t make anything easier anyhow!” I remember this very clearly because I was in my kitchen, about to make some noodles, and I was trying to open this little package where these uncooked noodles are. That is actually very hard when you’re frustrated, by the way. Then, all of a sudden, I just realized that God is using me for these people. I had thought about this before, but I had never seen it this clearly before. It sounds silly, I know, but that’s what happened.
“Okay, Lord, what do you want me to do?”
When I came to school today I saw it even clearer than I did the night before. Some of my friends are going through a really tough time right now, especially the ones that are against the Lord, and since I love them so dearly, I want to do everything I can to help them. But all they really need is God. They need to really see his miracles and to feel his unconditional love. I still believe that I’m in this class, in this school, because the Lord wants me to be here. I’m needed, because God is with me. Even though I have a habit of not believing that. God is reaching out for these people through me. Amazing!