I’m in a season in my life where I just sit and reflect over my life. Everything comes to mind. “Who am I?, “What am I doing here?”, “Does God actually have a plan for me?” You know, all of these questions teenagers get at some point. I think the main thing that makes me worried is my dream of becoming an actress.
I’ve chosen the acting-industry-road, which probably is the toughest road there is when it comes to actually making a living out of your job. I’ve told God many times, notice how I put “many” in cursive letters, that if he doesn’t want me to do this, he has to take this dream away from me and replace it with something else. Something better. Something that makes sense somehow. The thing is, he hasn’t taken it away. It’s still here, and it’s more alive than ever.
Well, that’s great! At least you know what God wants you to do, you might be thinking. You’re absolutely right, of course. It’s just that I can’t see how things will ever work out. Then again, I’m not the one controlling all of this. I know this deep within, but it’s really hard to think about that when you’re in the middle of it all.
However, I’ve had all of these thoughts of quite a while. Then, all of a sudden, when I’m in all of this, I find the song “This Is Not Goodbye” by Sidewalk Prophets, and at one point in that song the lyrics says:
Well, just remember that your dreams, they are a promise, that you were made to change the world, so don’t let fear stop you now.
You see, this is how me and God’s communication works. Since I cannot hear his voice yet, he let me find songs that just happens to describe my situation perfectly. For those how wishes to listen to the song, you can find it here.
I just felt like sharing this. Thank you for reading and God bless you!